This week has been a trying one, and after what I would like to say was a lot of soul searching and heartache filled hours of debate except that it was really rather impulsive and liberating, I have decided to remove certain things from my life that had been causing me nothing but trouble and taking over my sanity. Consequently I now find myself feeling much more in control of my own time and my own path in life.
In the mean time, my pattern writing has been going very well. Excitingly, I got an e-mail for yarn support from Cascade yarns yesterday for a pattern set, and have proposals in with a few other companies. I am so excited to realize that I can do this on my own, and that I'm not dependent on anyone else to be as successful as I may or may not want to be. I have a handful of projects that I need to finish up for other people, and when that is finished I will begin the process of planning and writing my book. I've decided that I don't care if nobody ever wants to publish my book. It is something that I consider important and am passionate about, and if nothing else it will be of value to me.
In celebration of the realization that I am free to get rid of things that are pains in my... backside, I bought myself a .7 ct Tanzanite ring today. I've decided I heartily agree that the new 'Bondi Blue' Tanzanite is just a way to sell the less pretty second hand stones for a higher price, though there may be those who would rather have a blue-green stone instead of a blue-lavender stone. For myself, I chose the traditional shade. Yes, I bought it online, so it may be a disappointment (is there such a thing as disappointing Tanzanite?), but the earrings that John bought for me are not deep dark rich saturated color and they still have something so beautiful about them that every time I see them they take my breath away, and I feel all special and remember all over again the day that he bought them for me. I am hoping to wear this as a replacement wedding ring until mine is repaired, or even beyond, given our mutual growth into the dislike for diamonds. Anyway, even though I know my sweetheart doesn't read my blog, I hope he knows how much I love him and how complete my life is with him.
